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| Remie Daughter of Sarah Ellett |
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Tenley
Daughter of Hanah Cummings & Louie Zitting |
It amazes me
how such a tiny soul can make such an impact on one’s life. I’ve not only seen
this once but I’ve seen this in so many tiny babies. From the moment we find
out we are carrying a child or our partner finds out we are with child our
whole life changes. It’s no longer about you it’s about what’s best for the
baby. It becomes a race to become the best parents you can be even before their
arrival. You suddenly become selfless and put this tiny beings needs before
yours.
There has
never been a more rewarding feeling to me than the day I heard sweet Tenley’s
cry for the first time. My first though was “that’s my baby, she’s mine, I can’t
believe this”! My next though was is SHE ok not am I ok during this surgery. I
wanted Louie to be with HER, I didn’t care about if he was with me. I wanted the
best for her and her health. I never got to hear that sweet cry again nor did I
ever see that sweet angel alive but she still means the world to me and
although she is no longer with me in body she is with me in memory every day.
Back to the
point of this blog. She touched so many lives in the short life she lived. She’s
touched people hearts who don’t even know her or I. She gave me new friendships
I would never have without her, and she took away friendships that we’re
meaningless. She taught her mommy so much and definitely came here for so many
reasons. She’s made me such a strong woman and learned who I am and who I want
to be. She changed the person who I am for the better. I have felt her with me
more in the last month than I have ever. She has been with me holding my hand
through some of the hardest milestones of grief. She was created to become an
angel, she’s mommy’s angel of hope. She’s bringing so many positive people
& things to my life. She’s taught me what family means and what beauty is
made of. She’s still doing so much and she’s not even here. How is that even
possible? She is my angel, my everything, my baby girl.
Then I got the
pleasure of meeting a wonderful woman who has a sick little girl. This child
has already made such an impact on my life too. She also taught me what beauty
is, she’s inspiring and she’s created a beautiful friendship. I strongly
believe Tenley knew her in heaven and is her guardian angel. Whenever I go
visit this sweet baby I feel Tenley stronger there than I do anywhere. I think
they are friends and she is watching over her friend and making sure she is ok.
These
two little girls have impacted my life so much. Tenley has taught me what love
is, how important family is, how precious life is & beauty. Remie has
taught me what beauty is, she’s taught me to be a fighter & she made a new
friendship possible. These two little girls have BIG plans….I know some of
Tenley’s big plans and I know Remie has a bunch up her sleeve. They brought me
to what I want to do in life. I want to be the best NICU nurse I can be. It
seems like such a rewarding job to nurse these sick babies back to health. I
know there will be hard moments and there will be rewarding moments but life is
full of those moments.
I also found this quote and I love it. “Real love is when you become selfless and you are more concerned about your mate's or children's egos than your own. You're now a giver instead of a taker."
