Two little souls with big plans

Remie
Daughter of Sarah Ellett

                       Tenley
Daughter of Hanah Cummings & Louie Zitting

It amazes me how such a tiny soul can make such an impact on one’s life. I’ve not only seen this once but I’ve seen this in so many tiny babies. From the moment we find out we are carrying a child or our partner finds out we are with child our whole life changes. It’s no longer about you it’s about what’s best for the baby. It becomes a race to become the best parents you can be even before their arrival. You suddenly become selfless and put this tiny beings needs before yours.

There has never been a more rewarding feeling to me than the day I heard sweet Tenley’s cry for the first time. My first though was “that’s my baby, she’s mine, I can’t believe this”! My next though was is SHE ok not am I ok during this surgery. I wanted Louie to be with HER, I didn’t care about if he was with me. I wanted the best for her and her health. I never got to hear that sweet cry again nor did I ever see that sweet angel alive but she still means the world to me and although she is no longer with me in body she is with me in memory every day.

Back to the point of this blog. She touched so many lives in the short life she lived. She’s touched people hearts who don’t even know her or I. She gave me new friendships I would never have without her, and she took away friendships that we’re meaningless. She taught her mommy so much and definitely came here for so many reasons. She’s made me such a strong woman and learned who I am and who I want to be. She changed the person who I am for the better. I have felt her with me more in the last month than I have ever. She has been with me holding my hand through some of the hardest milestones of grief. She was created to become an angel, she’s mommy’s angel of hope. She’s bringing so many positive people & things to my life. She’s taught me what family means and what beauty is made of. She’s still doing so much and she’s not even here. How is that even possible? She is my angel, my everything, my baby girl.

Then I got the pleasure of meeting a wonderful woman who has a sick little girl. This child has already made such an impact on my life too. She also taught me what beauty is, she’s inspiring and she’s created a beautiful friendship. I strongly believe Tenley knew her in heaven and is her guardian angel. Whenever I go visit this sweet baby I feel Tenley stronger there than I do anywhere. I think they are friends and she is watching over her friend and making sure she is ok.

                These two little girls have impacted my life so much. Tenley has taught me what love is, how important family is, how precious life is & beauty. Remie has taught me what beauty is, she’s taught me to be a fighter & she made a new friendship possible. These two little girls have BIG plans….I know some of Tenley’s big plans and I know Remie has a bunch up her sleeve. They brought me to what I want to do in life. I want to be the best NICU nurse I can be. It seems like such a rewarding job to nurse these sick babies back to health. I know there will be hard moments and there will be rewarding moments but life is full of those moments.

I also found this quote and I love it. “Real love is when you become selfless and you are more concerned about your mate's or children's egos than your own. You're now a giver instead of a taker."